Womb Chronicles

From not knowing if I could have children to now having conceived two. I have gained a lot of insight from my own womb. Ages 13 to almost 23 showed me my strength in three different instances; through surgery, the pregnancy/birth of my first son, to my current experiences with my second pregnancy. All of which tied back to how I've gained strength and insight from my womb. Though many have endured the pain of childbirth and life's curveballs, my experiences were still very unique considering that my life was at stake. 

On May 23rd, 2010, my mom's 30th birthday, I almost died. At 14 years old I was diagnosed with a rare condition called hematocolpos. Hematocolpos caused me to not have a menstrual cycle due to the walls of my vagina being too thick. Without my knowledge, I was having my period for a whole year but the blood couldn't exit my womb. I ended up having to go through emergency surgery to create an escape for the excessive amount of blood. Now having experienced childbirth, the pain I endured that day was worst and showed me that childbirth is just a mental game of chess.

Traumatized by the surgery I had at 14, I was

convinced that I may not be able to have children. I was blessed after four months of trying to conceive. My pregnancy was semi-difficult due to severe morning sickness. The birth of my eldest son Vernile the third was a "piece of cake." My husband kept me calm as we sung along to John Legend's all of me in the middle of contractions and pushing. In 2 minutes and three pushes, my son was born on November 30th, 2016 at 4:20AM. Nothing could compare to the pain I felt that night on my mother's birthday, or so I thought.

Currently, I am pregnant again. With more mental stress than ever before, this pregnancy has been a lot more difficult already. Today I am exactly 23 weeks pregnant and the aches, pains, and morning sickness are 100% worse than my first pregnancy. If I am going through so much now I can only imagine what childbirth this time around would be like. I am currently planning on taking all online classes next semester to be able to prepare for my second son.

Although I have experienced childbirth before, I can say I was lucky enough to have been induced and given the option to have an epidural. I know, again, that these physical pains are still mostly mentally dominated and that I will be strong enough to have a second easy going labor. However, my husband and I can only prepare for so much; the baby can come at any moment, I just hope he comes out in the hospital. All in all, I have learned that I possess impeccable strength, anything is possible.